| Sunday, May 19, 2013
Its another journey in my life before i head out for the next.
But this journey reallyreally makes me very tired, very tired of facing work, very tired of finding motivation to carry on, but most importantly, im REALLY very tired of facing people! Their judgement, gossips, reactions and stuff.
I may have become too pampered in my past 18 years of my life.
but in just this short 5-6 mths, I finally know why adults dread people, work!
I really nid to learn how to handle all these shit, being arrowed, doing things which idk why im helping and such, and learn how to handle my mistakes.
in the beginning, this gave me the feeling of satisfaction. the joy of learning more and more stuff, becoming more experienced, making new frens.
but now, im starting to doubt myself, my abilities. What have I been doing for these past months?
till recently, was feeling more dejected and lost. Im starting to feel distrust in people, though i know they are still really nice.
i guess after witnessing all the bad things about one towards the other, i guess im afraid.
because im starting to feel that im falling into the predicament that one has been through before.
I admit the reason that i dun wanna leave is because im too emotional. i cant bear to give up.
But now, idk if i should still hold the thought and continue, or just leave.
一走了之真的可以让我解脱吗？还是压紧牙根得忍耐下去？Its still my responsible afterall :x
