| Monday, August 6, 2012
i know i hvnt been posting for long. but when life sux cos its just about mugging, i really dun have the mood to do anything. haizz life is such a no-life these days.
everyone is nagging that just tahan for afew months and you will enjoy later, but i reallyreally kinda cant stand it. sometimes i really wonder if thats signs of depression yet i got no one to talk to )):
okayy jct is over veryvery long ago. my study break for prelims is coming in a few weeks.
but it makes me reflect wat im still lacking of. not say that effective and most of the times it just makes me feel disappointed.
that was my best effort. i swear i did study my hell, liver, kidney or watever out and these are the kind of results that i gotten? wat happened to the definition of 'effort'?
on the positive side, im happy that my maths and econs did improve, esp my maths. and kinda happy that i just passed gp. ehhh not much expectation.
but wat happened to my best 2 subjects? they reallyreally drop quite alot. such that all my 4 H2 subjects roughly had the same scores and grades.
and then with everyone hashing on us for doing so poorly. it really makes me wonder wats my purpose of studying since i hvnt really find the goal of my life. for now the goal is just get the hell out of A levels.
and with these few weeks of non-stop revision tests remedials and such, cant help but feeling very helpless of doing so poorly in everyone. i hvnt been passing my bio revision tests and mind you, its only passing when im supposed to be aiming to be one of the highest. okayy i did just pass one of the test. haizz cant someone just slap my face and give me the motivation to seek knowledge? and seriously not just the knowledge but the skills to apply which i severely lack of. how to survive in this world?
and with these millions of tests/ revision exercise that im supposed to study for, i cant really plan out my study timetable when im just studying the things that are tested. i really wanna the time to organise the topics and subjects to study. but thats during the study break, which i really wonder if i have the time for. T.T
and im so sorry for all these emo posts because studying has already drive me nuts. everyday i just reached home, hugged my lecture notes, prac and sleep. i really wanna a breather but im worried that it would stop my momentum esp im easily distracted.
but just tahan for afew more mths. JUST 4 MORE MONTHS AND IM OUT OF THIS STUPID VICIOUS CYCLE, i swear i dun wanna to study so hardcore anymore T.T
