| Monday, April 9, 2012
TODAYS SUCH A HORRIBLE DAY!
horrible day first started out with mct results. like gp and econs during my break.
i failed gp damn horridiously. like watt? so low lehhh.
butbut im real glad that im not getting my first U of my whole life now. cos i just luckily, just luckily gotten a S.
but still im quite disappointed with myself :x
andand im like the lowest in the class. wth see how gp fails me.
econs was, hiya not much expectation.
so now, i totally have spectrum results. good is de really good. bad is de really bad.
cant i just stay consistent like all results are like okayokay?
but i really really did study for it. life is just filled with all the unexpected.
then in the afternoon was pw results, the long awaiting pw results that took me my blood and sweat last year.
okayy the teacher and the principal was damn annoying. just saying.
but our batch really really did like quite badly. not even half A lehh. its only H1 pw.
then ya our results came and i really dun wanna mention much.
but thanks to all my dearest frens and pwmates that stayed with me and giving me a sort of comfort, ease and just staying by my side.
i really wanna give a tight slap to my teacher. THANKS for rubbing in man!
i totally saw and heard that okay.
(okay i didnt say anything. just treat me as venting)
i mean, it could be that i didnt put in enough effort, time. but now, wat i can really say is, i put in my best effort in my pw documents. it could be due to my laziness, reluctance, stubborness or whatever lah. but wat i really feel is that i failed to lead my grp to get our deserving As! i mean, i been through the whole thing as a group and i really understand how all of us suffer yet we can work tgt as a team to come out with our final product. we are all so proud of it and i mean they deserve their As. perharps i just failed as my own individual part, failure to lead to bring out all our potential and capability to get out As. perharps im just not meant to lead.
yes many ppl, including my grpmates said that not getting an A for pw doesnt mean the end of the world. okay i know but with pw, i alr lost half of the battle of not achieving the perfect distinction and no matter how well the other subjects will be, pw is like a soreful ugly dot on my results slip. and of cos, i always know myself the best that getting straight As is like a far, far away star for me to reach out too. if i lost the first half battle, wat would be the chance of winning in the end?
but yes, i promise to myself that after today, i would stop crying and rather, come out with more concrete actions and strategies to combat the rest of the battle. even though i must admit, i tend to give up easily, i dun wanna lose this impt battle that will determine my life, my direction of goal and the battle in which i spent so much effort in. stepping out of the comfort zone is one, but i must make sure that at least i tried, and i really tried my best to prevent regrets. so when they say pw is actually kinda like a lesson for you to learn, but the effects and consequences really hurt me alot.
lastly, thanks to all my frens that stayed by me, comforting, hugging or anything (:
