| Monday, June 20, 2011
just a thought, cos im really tired from studying.
its like Os but multiply by a million millions times!
why did the hell i even choose bio?
why did i even choose to come tj?
why did i even choose to go to a JC? i should have go to a poly.
why did i even choose to become so smart in ahs? i should have like score 20+ for my Os.
why did i even choose ahs as my sec sch? it gave me so much stress that i have to push myself to study so hard! i should have just gone to a neighbourhood sch.
why did i even go to a top class in my pri sch? i wouldnt have to be so smart and score well for my psle. i could have just gone to EM3 and now, i would be in ite slacking.
haiz. in short, its torturing to be smart, or even just striving to work harder.
now im working like siao just for my jct cos i dun wanna fail or watever get suspended for cca or even sss till 9pm everyday.
cos now everyday, i just feel more and more stress. more and more unhappy.
i know im not studying as hard as i should be. like study 24/7.
i only studied from morning till evening and its alr driving me crazy D:
and i only have 4 subjects to study. plus its only all the elementary stuff. ITS ALR MAKING ME CRAZY!
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SURVIVE THE NXT 2 YRS?
life is hard, very hard.
feeling like dying for jcts. nothing is getting into my head.
reading and reading again. but does it even help me understand or memorise? not really:x
maybe i shouldnt be so smart. just average is enough.
